a wee bit

well today we had a science lab - my students are learning the parts of the plant and so i took them to the science lab and they looked at different potted plants and took them out of the soil to see the roots and they were amazed!!!

but it brought up a really unforeseen moment of weakness. i guess it was just the feeling of the dirt in my hands, the smell of flowers and dirt, and the sight of the pretty potted plants - but it reminded me so much of the mini garden i planted at my apartment in jersey and then of the garden jason and i planted together in philly. i was literally blindsided by homesickness.... i nearly started crying right there in the middle of class, i had to start talking to a student and get a quick hug to bring myself back. i knew if i kept thinking about it there would be no stopping the tears....

i don't know where it came from. i mean of course i miss everyone. i wish i could say i was having so much fun and made so many friends i was too distracted to notice, but it's simply not true. i suppose i do have fun and i have made friends, it's just very different than costa rica in the sense that we were always out doing something, speaking spanish, and meeting people. i don't know - this is not like that. i'm trying really hard though... anyway ugh, i feel like all i ever do is whine on my blog - has it become irritating yet???